Surprise... stream of consciousness kind of thing

[Eponine]

bites, bruises
where He chooses
marks and slaps till i collapse
into time lapse
more please, Master, i need more...
i will take all You give and beg for more...
absence unbearable separation intolerable time without You deplorable
ensnared more by Your stare
than by Your hand in my hair

like needles into flesh defenseless,
You ream my naked essense
penetrate with simple gaze
deepest intensity
eyes ablaze
carve into my soul, under Your control

visions brewed obtrude, conquered girl imbued
images inseminated, yielding mind impregnated
cold fear dispensed, collared girl influenced

orifices consuming
things large and looming, not meant to enter

fear swells, thrills, and chills
paralyzed and still
fluids outward spill

safety security bottoms out
almost

yet still in terror engrossed
while You boast- You, the host

Proprietor of all things mari
Ruler supreme
in all moments, small and extreme

perhaps a chuckle
at how i buckle
dwindle to liquid pieces of myself
while You play and tease
with lightness and ease
even pull and squeeze...

...squeeze my eyes mute
bathed in sweat suit
all other senses fully acute
in dimensions grand and minute
while fibers of my sanity attempt reboot

my only way to prepare
do You dare

heart pounding, color pale
eyes veiled, breath inhaled

You laugh! honey, the safety's on!
the barrel's all clear
bullets withdrawn
No worries, My precious dear.

[jeanne]

Woo! that was a rollercoaster ride to me, with the really big drop at the end that makes your stomach fly up into your throat. Good job of building the intensity in the last few stanzas.

[^firefly^]

mari,

That was incredible... I loved the flow, the pacing, the somewhat sporadic rhyming. Wow! I agree with his_j...what a roller coaster ride that was!

Thanks for sharing it with us!

[Rhabbi]

This is really good, stream your consciousness some more.

(Is that a sentence? Looks around for muse and does not see her. Whew.)

[Eponine]

Thanks guys- I really appreciate it.

This bit of writing came to me from Master telling me about a previous sub who actually had wanted Him to put a gun in her mouth. Wow. That was never a thought that had ever occurred to me. But the seed was thus planted.

By the way, Rhabbi, I think your sentence worked!

[tessa]

Extraordinary! I was caught up more and more with each and every word.

tessa

[Eponine]

Thank you, Tessa.