Girl in the moon

[rsjankowski]

vanilla means not a bdsm sexual lifestyle, pretty much everything is dull or boring, with no place for something out of the ordinary. kinda like stale rice cakes, no taste, nothing to them.

[dohima]

Earlier I wrote:

Where is the punishment? Of course, I mean only a virtual session of punishment, but it can produce real humiliation, even real pain, too. Only I seek a girl. Guys all want to see me, and, as I said, I won't upload photos. At the same time, I can well understand their demand. Perhaps I will write a blog entry about this.

Now I produced the blog, with the title: SLAP YOUR FACE. Kindly check it out if you are interested. It also contains how I plan Yahoo! Messaging in the future. There are chances. :-)

[lucy]

vanilla means not a bdsm sexual lifestyle, pretty much everything is dull or boring, with no place for something out of the ordinary. kinda like stale rice cakes, no taste, nothing to them.

a bit harsh, imho. Many people like it the vanilla way and many of them are probably just as happy as BDSMers.

[dohima]

I want to thank Robert and Lucy for the useful posts about the meaning of "vanilla". I also have got valuable information from denuseri in private messages. My real problem was whether I fulfilled my "About Me" right or revealed again how stupid I was. I am, of course, just I don't like if it shows. :-) I am telling there about my love relationships, while I can see that other people are telling about their non-sexual interests, as reading, music etc. Denuseri has assured me that it goes both way. Confirmed by Robert's and Lucy's posts, I leave it as it is. Thanks again for your kindness.

[dohima]

Earlier I wrote:

Now I produced the blog, with the title: SLAP YOUR FACE. Kindly check it out if you are interested. It also contains how I plan Yahoo! Messaging in the future. There are chances. :-)

Well, there are no chances any more. My attitude has changed. Sorry, but I don't seek cyber sessions any more. I am very sorry for being so hesitant and confused. I wrote a new blog with the title "Old male chimpanzee". It explains the change.

Things are showing otherwise from the moon...

[rsjankowski]

a bit harsh, imho. Many people like it the vanilla way and many of them are probably just as happy as BDSMers.

sometimes i get that, i try to be blunt and to the point, but alot of times it comes across as arrogant or mean. occupational hazard? sorry if it happens just trying to be helpful.

[dohima]

While I think Lucy is right, let me say, however, that your post was helpful for me, Robert. I thank you for it repeatedly. Now I start using the term "vanilla" myself. :-)

sometimes i get that, i try to be blunt and to the point, but alot of times it comes across as arrogant or mean. occupational hazard? sorry if it happens just trying to be helpful.

[dohima]

A very kind gentleman messaged me, saying that he wouldn't mind punishing me online. His first question was whether I have a webcam. Well, I came to fully understand the demand. A man wants to see me when punished. He wants to see a girl naked. If he tells me to whip myself, he wants to see the whip strokes administered properly. If he tells me to put clamps on my nipples, he wants to see those clamps applied. I he tells me to kneel on rice, he wants to see the marks on my knees. Perhaps he wants to see a dildo at work. And I don't think that females are much different. Because I want to hide my identity and don't show my face, my ideas about cyber punishment sessions were really silly. Any fantasy play I still want to do will take place via private messaging. A nice lady gave me permission to kiss her feet. I do it almost every day, with the happy excitement of self-humiliation in my body. It doesn't take place via webcam, only in private messages. I enjoy going down to my knees and kissing the floor (in my fantasy: her feet) at the end of my letters, and she enjoys my kiss reading my messages (in her fantasy: feeling my lips on her feet). I have no foot fetish, what I enjoy is humiliation.
Similar way I could enjoy being whipped. You give me the number of strokes. They will be executed (in reality, not only in fantasy) and thanked properly. Please punish me for being so silly as I was. My pain will be real, not mere fantasy.

[denuseri]

Just be very careful with your personal information boo, and remember if you put a picture or a cam session up on the internet, it is there forever and who really knows what the other person will really do with it.

[dohima]

Yes, thanks for the warning. I will not use a webcam. Among other reasons, I have none. Pictures I have, but won't upload them.
Thanks again, denuseri.

Just be very careful with your personal information boo, and remember if you put a picture or a cam session up on the internet, it is there forever and who really knows what the other person will really do with it.

[dohima]

I am leaving BDSM Library, never to return. I won't bother others with my crazy ideas any more. I sincerely apologize for every wrong I did. You were incredibly nice to me all, thank you a thousand times.
Dohima

[rsjankowski]

awwww! but i liked your crazy ideas. glad you at least stayed a while, take care, and you will be missed. if you need anything or want to ask any questions, i'm on the yahoo messenger : id rsjankowski just mention your from the library. my email should be on my page in the library.