Hello all

[Cold Harbor]

When I was fresh out of high school I visited my mother's relatives in England. My uncle took me to dinner where the hostess, a lovely Indian woman, read my tarot cards. She got only a couple cards into it before a curious look crossed her face and she asked me quite directly, "Are you a sadist?" I did what any 18-year-old American virgin would do. I laughed it off uncomfortably and then suppressed it for many, many, many years.

I've spent the last 17 years in a sexless relationship. I now accept that I am a Dom, that I always have been, and that I desire to control. I'm still married, and am struggling to find my way with who I am. Where it will go with my current relationship I have no idea. I have found a sub that I have grown to care for tremendously. It will be a long distance arrangement, which I acknowledge will be fraught with as much frustration as satisfaction for both of us.

I found this site as I was exploring what bdsm was all about. To say that I'm new to this would be an understatement. I will look to your guidance and experience to help me to realize who I am.

Thanks for being so welcoming. Please be patient with my many, many questions.

[karley]

Hi and welcome. I hope you find everything you're looking for here!

[denuseri]

Welcome to our kinky little corner of the internet!

[Cold Harbor]

Thank you both. Best twisted corner of the internet hands down.

[rosebud]

Hello, Welcome to the Library!

xx rosie

[Liushka]

Welcome to the Library!

[chipmunk_]

Hello, Cold Harbor.
Welcome to the Library! You're lucky to have found this site. You say you have many, many questions. You'll find that the members here have such a wide array of experience that there's sure to be someone who can help you find some of the answers you seek. Enjoy your time here!