Hehe no worries, Internet is hard to get an understanding from. This relationship has lasted 11 years, some years including stuff that statistics were stacked against it (or us for that matter) surviving. I have to much of my soul invested in this relationship, I can not see anything making me walk away from it. And I do have to give my husband credit, he is trying despite cringing and at sometimes feeling like a total bastard even doing the things I like.