This thread is scary-relevant tonight.

I was also raised to be a "good-girl". This is something that continues to carry over into my submission, and that which I am becoming ever increasingly aware of.

I am still trying to reconcile all of this in my head, so this may sound disjointed. For me, it is much easier to do things that I can connect to the "good girl" image. A good girl follows orders. She is eager to please. She makes her Sir proud. She does not give voice to her deepest, darkest, dirtiest fantasies.

This is something that has become almost crippling to me. I can literally open my mouth wanting to say something....but no sound comes out. I am open, and outgoing, and decisive about everything else....but as for what I want, I have no voice.

Is this virtue? I have no idea.

I can't imagine this being a desirable trait. I doubt that many Doms would put up with it, let alone seek it out.