As I've said before thank you A/all for your help and advice.

Today we played for the first time and it was interesting and I liked it but I am wondering if my initial reaction to it was normal? It seemed as if I was numb to what was happening. I liked that I could let someone control me, esp. her, that part was not hard, but when she would whip me, it was like I blocked out the pain. I couldn't feel it and that for me was a let down of sorts. So I am wondering if I am metally blocking this out for a reason or if this is normal for a newbie who has been abused in the past? Again thank you A/all for your time.