Crying

[annie]

Thanks for starting such a great thread slave327! Sounds like you had a wonderful and very special experience. I have never had an experience such as that but it may happen some day...

When i was first trained i was taught that to cry during a scene was considered disrespectful to the Dominate, no matter what was occurring during the scene... the amount of pain, emotion, etc. That my acceptance and tolerance of the scene, in a somewhat quiet manner, was what was expected.

Just recently i have started to realize that was ONE persons way of doing things... That my not only having but sharing a strong emotion, be it through tears or other outlets, during a scene is appropriate and actually expected/desired. That realization has been amazing and actually very freeing in it's own way... now the trick is to just remembering it when things get intense...

[slave327-834-200]

Thanks for starting such a great thread slave327! Sounds like you had a wonderful and very special experience. I have never had an experience such as that but it may happen some day...

When i was first trained i was taught that to cry during a scene was considered disrespectful to the Dominate, no matter what was occurring during the scene... the amount of pain, emotion, etc. That my acceptance and tolerance of the scene, in a somewhat quiet manner, was what was expected.

Just recently i have started to realize that was ONE persons way of doing things... That my not only having but sharing a strong emotion, be it through tears or other outlets, during a scene is appropriate and actually expected/desired. That realization has been amazing and actually very freeing in it's own way... now the trick is to just remembering it when things get intense...

Thanks for sharing too.

I suppose in a way I had stopped myself in the past from crying, not because, as your previous Dominant had you believe, I thought it disrespectful but more out of a stubborn pride. Now I realise I can let go of that sort of pride and need for control as it has no place as I move forward with my training and experiences.

The fact is I was standing there hoping and coaxing the tears to come for me but instead I got a whole other delightful experience!!

TDS - I have been thinking about how you find your sub crying a turn on and I think there maybe a discussion ahead for Master and I. I think the thought off my mascara streaked face might do a little something for him too!

[master 327-834-200]

Thanks for sharing too.

I suppose in a way I had stopped myself in the past from crying, not because, as your previous Dominant had you believe, I thought it disrespectful but more out of a stubborn pride. Now I realise I can let go of that sort of pride and need for control as it has no place as I move forward with my training and experiences.

The fact is I was standing there hoping and coaxing the tears to come for me but instead I got a whole other delightful experience!!

TDS - I have been thinking about how you find your sub crying a turn on and I think there maybe a discussion ahead for Master and I. I think the thought off my mascara streaked face might do a little something for him too!

I am reading this thread with interest slave as we had such a wonderful experience and through this thread I continue to live it with you. As so often happens with you we took not just one step forward but several and the last vestiges of your control of self are finally slipping away through the training and coaching you have submitted to. Your devotion has never been less than total and that leads to the level of intensity that we are able to achieve.

And as for that look of streaming mascara, I defy any dominant not to find that satisfying.