Thank you so much for all the nice responses!! It made my head do some more thinking, and I asked myself why I have the desire to submit in the first place. I remembered back to when I was little and I always let my sister play with the only Barbie that we hadn't cut all the hair off of How happy I was when my mom watched my ballet recital and cried because she was so proud of me. Silly things, but the more I remember, the more I realize that pleasing others makes me truly happy. For the first time, I think I'm embracing who I really am instead of pretending to be someone I'm not.

I'm so glad you all realize my Master has never disrespected me-- I didn't mean for it to sound like that at all!! He's told me many times how proud He is of me and how special I am to Him. I do feel that He respects me and my submission to Him-- but I was still trying to work out the "how" part in my head.

I guess sometimes I just start to doubt myself-- it's a bad habit I have that Master is trying to help me break Thanks so much for all the input-- keep it coming if you have more! I like hearing everyone's ideas and thoughts.