Devotion through pain.

[vistana]

...head space where she can hate the act but love the situation.

oh, that applies to a few things I can think of... i love being made to do things I don't like.
Mostly it's humiliation-related acts that get that reaction, but occasionally pain works it's way in. I'm a pretty heavy masochist, but I don't always enjoy the pain as it's being inflicted. I do enjoy that I'm not enjoying it however, which I think is what the OP was saying.