Quote Originally Posted by vistana View Post
oh, that applies to a few things I can think of... i love being made to do things I don't like.
Mostly it's humiliation-related acts that get that reaction, but occasionally pain works it's way in. I'm a pretty heavy masochist, but I don't always enjoy the pain as it's being inflicted. I do enjoy that I'm not enjoying it however, which I think is what the OP was saying.
Yes.. for me... i get off on Master truly enjoying my pain, tears, humiliation, fear. The only pain I truly enjoy, in a vacuum, is nipple pinching, and only to a certain extent. Nothing else is enjoyable to me in and of itself- only the thrill of Master's sadism brings me pleasure... giving myself up so completely... that He can use me and my body however He wishes (and of course I trust Him and know He will not abuse that trust)... that is the thrill for me... I do also love being pushed, to endure as much as I can for His pleasure... _that_ is my pleasure... and my turn-on.

Only recently, with Master, did i discover how much i needed a sadist. A true sadist who will purely enjoy giving me pain and humiliation- not someone doing it b/c they know or think i will enjoy it- that doesn't work for me.

I love it when I tell Master, "my nipples are sore..." (of course with a grin) and He says, "Good," with a truly delicious, wicked grin.

I do have to add- those leftover pains are enjoyable to me in a purely phsyical sense as well as emotionally, being reminders of O/our time together.