Ruby I posted more in the other forum but I just wanted to thank you for the life lesson you showed me when you were with Nathanile. I adore you.

I have to thank Ruby for allowing me to see how she interacts with her Nathaniel. They have so much fun together that it made me realize I was holding back a part of myself from Saracen. I take everything so seriously and worry so much that I was not enjoying Saracen’s company as much as I could have. We even had a serious conversation about punishment. I told him I knew one day he would probably have too. He started teasing me that he really didn’t need a reason to punish me if that was what he felt like doing at the time. I got serious on him again. I told him I would rather take pain knowing it was for his pleasure rather than thinking it was because I displeased him. Saracen didn’t undertand why I worried about it. He has never punished me. I tried to explain that disappointing him hurt worst than the zipper and that I would rather do the zipper than have him say he is disappointed in me. Then I teased him and said you noticed I didn’t mention the nasty alligator clips. Saracen mentioned something about my mouth being an inspiration for ideas. I couldn’t help but laughing. I had done it again and he was laughing too. So I told Saracen if he felt the dreaded “D” word coming to let me know and I would say zipper. In the back of my mind I must have known it was possible that he could have the need to hurt me emotionally. I have seen other Doms do it. I was just too afraid to ask him if he had that need as well. Now I know Saracen would never hurt me like that on purpose. We had a great time teasing one another once I realized that Saracen would not use my emotions against me. My trust in him has grown. Now Saracen can tease and make me squirm and I can enjoy his wonderful but evil sense of humor.

Thank you Master for a wonderful night. Please remember patience is a virture which I am sadly lacking in. Please don't keep me on CD for to long. I may end up being bad.

Saracen’s Jade