I joined this forum a year ago in the hopes of finding a Dom for me to aggravate (only the way S/He would like of course). Then I disappeared for a while due to some hardships in my life. I lost interest in everything I enjoyed (even sex!). My first return was after my ex and I got back together. I was hoping to morph him into some sort of Dom that he isn't. Of course, that didn't work very well.

Well, now I'm back. I'm still with my nonDom boyfriend, but I'm learning slowly what it was that drew me to him. He might be a bit vanilla in bed (although he loves to bite, scratch, and squeeze) and it bothered me for a while. Until I realized that the initial thing I enjoyed about him was his calm, his dignity, and his way of making me feel safe. He doesn't exactly understand the world of bdsm, but I'm willing to live this version.

And so here I am, enjoying the relationship I have for what it is. But I also realize there are things being unfulfilled. I feel I can get the support I need with this group.

And so I'm back!

A little about me: I love to go on and on about myself. There's a link to my blog in my profile that will prove it. I consider myself to be The Supreme Ruler of all the land (only to be knocked off my pedestal whenever my love deems fit). I'm always up for a chat, but I have been conditioned to not speak until spoken to. If you expect to chat with me you have to let me know.

Some say that I'm smart. I'm not sure that I believe them, but I am currently working on my PhD at the University of Washington for computational chemistry. I like long ridiculously difficult math problems only done via computer coded calculation programs.

I enjoy politics, music, movies, reading, writing, math, logic puzzles, painting, sewing, cooking, and sex. I'm going through hobby withdrawal since I just moved to Seattle with my Man in my tiny Saturn and three cats. There was not much room for much more than the computers and some clothes.

I can't spell to save my life. I have already fixed about fifty errors Mozilla is nice enough to point out for me. I'm always hot, unless it is cold. Then I'm freezing. I love fresh tea, especially rose bud. You can use it as a bath perfume as well!

I guess that's enough.....sorry about the long winded post. I told you I love to go on and on!