First things first…oh my god, he is going to the forums…what did I write? I cannot remember.
*smiles impishly* I neglected to tell him I have accumulated over 800 posts since 2003. I had better send him the direct link to make things much easier for him…that might teach him for calling me wicked although I dearly loved this, it sent trills deep inside me.
Did I post too much information? Oh I hope I did not post too much. I will have to go look. I know he will correct me…OH MY GOD, he is surrounding me, he is entering my life in ways no one has, he is touching me so deeply. Already I trust him with so much and have let him see so much inside. God!
I flushed when reading his email, from my head down, I swear I could feel it flooding my face and neck. This was not a blush…it felt different, or was it a more intense blush? I don’t know. It just felt different.
Remembering Friday night, I fear I won’t last long at all, can I control myself?
God will one climax suffice tonight? One, I must have one, no more. This is hard, I can’t believe I have said that but it is difficult to have one…not that I am complaining at all.
I feel like the frothy head of a quickly drained beer from a glass, left dripping slowly down the side to pool at the bottom in a puddle right now!
How can he affect me so quickly? Is it normal to be so?
I know, maintain perspective…hell live a little.
If this is meant to be, it will be.

I wonder what colors are his favorites or does he enjoy variety? Perhaps depending on his mood and reflection?
After Christmas I must go peruse some stores…what kind of stockings would I be looking for? Shoes? Panties and bras are easier to understand. This is a bit embarrassing to admit. The last pair of shoes I bought except sneakers was for my wedding and even then my shoes were very conservative. What shoes does he enjoy? Omg would he wish to go with me? I am self-conscious going into a store like that by myself…I have never, ok, really intimate thoughts. I have no clue what it would be like…no way he would come into a lingerie store or whichever it is that sells underclothes, shoes…?
Enough! Stop! I must sleep sometime tonight.