First steps

[Echoes]

Thank you everyone for your encouragement and kind words.
I guess it is over already...sadly so because I will miss him but I found I was not into intense pain or it being so suddenly and intensely introduced.

One slave read me her contract many years ago and in this it stated "if she could not be everything he wished" then she must turn in her collar thus allowing him to seek someone who is.

I acted upon this, I would never be able to fulfill him or his needs so I withdrew from the running knowing this is him and what he wished. It would not be fair to pretend otherwise or lead him astray, nor would it be fair to myself either.

My fears were I did not know what I was doing or if I was harming myself by completing his task, especially after being bound in a certain way for a minimum of two hours each time.
My extremeties went numb to feeling...this bode a caution warning. He cannot see what I do, except by his instructions, nor does he see the result until the next day.

Right now a once real life friend and I are arguing whether I should close my ad down...he says no, I say yes, and we all know how stubborn I can be (he moved far away and was the one who in fact encouraged me to place and advertisement there and was on my friends list (heh he wanted to interview everyone and is like a big brother to me)

Anyway, perhaps when my children are grown up I might try again.

~hugs~
echoes