toy chest

[gemmy]

not having a Master, all my toys (insertable or not) are mine as yet and would expect, for all the above mentioned reasons, that they would stay that way - as i am only looking for One, i would hope they would just stay between us and if it didn't work out, that they would be thrown out (insertable ones, of course)

as the title of this thread is, toy chest.....does anyone know where to buy a really nice one to hold all their little goodies from teenage eyes? *giggles*

a seminar i attended a couple weekends ago had a great speaker (submissive) on the feelings of Domination and what the submissive requires from it. she spoke about how a submissive needs to know her direction, solidly and absolutely from her Dominant to feel safe otherwise she starts to "feel for the walls" - she looks for her safe walls as given to her by her Dominant - if He is not doing His job, she won't find them and panics - if He's left too much for interpretation, she'll feel for the walls, if He's given absolute direction she will feel safe and have no need to wildly feel for the walls of the security He gives her.

i think that that is a quick bite of the whole feeling, at least for me, of what finding the right Master will give me - i give Him my complete trust, love, devotion and utter submission and He in turn, by accepting the responsibility of that, gives me safety, security, protection and the freedom to be what my desires, His slave

idealic? maybe - romanticized? perhaps - impossible? never hehe

gem,
xo

[icey]

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as the title of this thread is, toy chest.....does anyone know where to buy a really nice one to hold all their little goodies from teenage eyes? *giggles*[/QUOTE

wow have you still got some?? i wore all mine out lol
have you tried local furniture and diy stores? you can get some lovely ottomans/blanket boxes in all shapes and sizes which are ornamental and lockable too

a seminar i attended a couple weekends ago had a great speaker (submissive) on the feelings of Domination and what the submissive requires from it. she spoke about how a submissive needs to know her direction, solidly and absolutely from her Dominant to feel safe otherwise she starts to "feel for the walls" - she looks for her safe walls as given to her by her Dominant - if He is not doing His job, she won't find them and panics - if He's left too much for interpretation, she'll feel for the walls, if He's given absolute direction she will feel safe and have no need to wildly feel for the walls of the security He gives her.

i can understand that, if i dont have routine which = security for me i panic and once that routine goes i can get stuck in a rut and find it hard to get back to it and thats when i tend to struggle,but sometimes due to outside circumstances some routines etc have to be changed or dropped.

but there are some areas of my life that both Icehawk and myself have over time have had to accept that i cannot give up control of,generally in regards to my children and family mostly which can cause problems occasionaly and even though i cant give it over to him for whatever reason i still struggle with that.
ive learnt over time not all is rosy and im not and never will be the perfect so called 'true' sub therefore how i feel being dominated is hard for me to put into words or a specific 'tag' to , as situations and feelings can vary at different times quite considerably.

eeks am i going totally off topic

[gemmy]

ive learnt over time not all is rosy and im not and never will be the perfect so called 'true' sub therefore how i feel being dominated is hard for me to put into words or a specific 'tag' to , as situations and feelings can vary at different times quite considerably.

icey, i think many people suffer the balance of D/s vs all that is vanilla and required in our lives, we just have to make allowances for those - i don't think those situations constitute whether we are 'true' subs or not, just realistic hehe - i think it's the 'essence' of the feeling when you are able to be dominated that counts *smiles*

gem,
xo