Why I am a worthless piece of shit

[lily27]

You have two Masters that asked you the same question?? Just the logistics of that boggles my mind.

Unfortunately, I can't really help you in the slightest. In my relationship, refering to myself as a "worthless piece of shit" would result in some pretty serious punishment. Putting down my Master's property (i.e. me) is akin to insulting him outright. Definitely not a good idea.

So I wonder why they are asking this of you? Do they really want you to think that you are worthless? And what honour is it to them that their sub is a piece of shit? Maybe someone can explain this dynamic to me, because at the moment I really don't get it.

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You have two Masters that asked you the same question?? Just the logistics of that boggles my mind.

I never really caught that, but it does come across that way now that you mention it.

So I wonder why they are asking this of you? Do they really want you to think that you are worthless? And what honour is it to them that their sub is a piece of shit? Maybe someone can explain this dynamic to me, because at the moment I really don't get it.

I can't speak for anyone but myself, but I'll try to explain it to you if I can.

For me it's part of the humiliation and degredation that I enjoy. I am a massochist for humliation, the worse I am treated the more I like it.
It is like play sessions that others have only instead of being tied and spanked, my mind is played with.

We had discussed this quite a bit before we went forward with it, and even still it is discussed intermintently to ensure that I am not being harmed emotionally.
It can be so easy to slip into that role and begin to think of it negatively.

Even when I am being called derogatory names, or when I am called the lowest form of whore there is, I know that it is really a term not in the sense that is intended to hurt.
I am still respected, and appreciated in what I do.
Since we both enjoy it, I don't have a problem with it.

However if someone is using another for thier own amusement in the area, it can be extremely harmful to the reciprocating person.
In my opinion this type of relationship or play can be very dangerous. The mind is not a toy and all parties involved should be careful and proceed with caution.