Quote Originally Posted by mirage030303 View Post
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Greatings everyone,

I have been on this site for a few days now, reading and trying to understand what is happening to me. Now decided to ask for help.

I have just found out about me being a sub, and am very confused.
Been though a training online for 3 weeks and had my first experience about 2weeks ago.
Was pretty extream. For a first. For both of us. Because it was also a first for my Master.
After our session, that was the most wonderfull experience for me. And my Master. He kinda freaked out, and doubts his ability to assert himself as a Master
He was in a long term vanilla relationship, and says he still loves her, but she will never complet him.
Now it has been two weeks that he cut me off. He says he has to think things through and figure out if he will go for what he wants vs what he needs.
I have no doubts in my mind he is a Dom. And even lesser doubt im a sub.
Discovering this in myself, made me realise what i have been looking for all my life.
But now that i have foud all this out. I am left standing.
This IS pure torture!!!!
Constant Craving.
Not knowing if he will come back r not.
What should i do meanwhile. To ease the pain, the cravings, and get on with my life.
It actualy feels like i was out of water for a real long time then, given a sip, now not knowing if ill ever drink again.
Please help me get trough this and maybe help me understand if what my Master is going trough is normal.

having discovered what you've been looking for all your life.. well it can be possible to confuse the intense feelings of having discovered your true nature with the intense feelings of having discovered your One.

maybe He is the one for you, i can't comment on that too much. however, in the whirlwind spin of discovering submission, having your first D/s relationship, having your first BDSM experience .. well, pet, how would you know? how could you tell the difference?

is it Him Himself that you're longing for so much or is it for how you felt when you were getting to be and do these new things with Him? because that's not the same thing. and alot of hurt can come for both parties from confusing the two.

i hope that no matter how it turns out, that you will both take your time and explore, find yourselves, and especially remember to take into account the heady, intense nature of what youre choosing to do... it is a factor all it's own that can easily mislead you. (many less scrupulous people will be happy to use that against you by the way so watch out.. but i hope thats another subject)

i hope it turns out for the best either way *smile*