Quote Originally Posted by mirage030303
I have just found out about me being a sub, and am very confused.
Been though a training online for 3 weeks and had my first experience about 2weeks ago.
Was pretty extream. For a first. For both of us. Because it was also a first for my Master.

After our session, that was the most wonderfull experience for me. And my Master. He kinda freaked out, and doubts his ability to assert himself as a Master

...I dont feel like he's a demon, but its more of what to do with that overwelming feeling of lost, lonelyness, and constant craving.

You're on the right track, that feeling deep down that you've been exposed, the trembling are pretty good indicators that this 'redirection' of something inside is right, that it's a real need. But the feeling of being tossed through a plate-glass window and landing in a deep sense of need, vulnerability and confusion is something most subs experience now and then. Not just in the beginning either. Putting oneself as open as you do when you're in session with a Dom, or just talking to him, lays you open, one goes into a different landscape, like entering itno a wake ´dream or suddenly understanding what the birds sing, and after that you need somone to meet that, to talk to again, to your Dom or to another sub.

I guess you might like to take a look at the thread A is for Aftercare at th A-z of BDSM board - aftercare is the 'technical term' for "talking down" a submissive at the end of a session or even days later -but also, do try to find a new Dom and one who has some more experience to lean on.

Good luck!