sorry im a bit confused...do you mean you find it difficult to submit in your everyday life not the sexual side?

if you mean in your day to day relationship then tbh if you're finding it very difficult then perhaps its not really right for you,maybe you're only suited to it sexually?

but saying that its not always easy it can be confusing and difficult at first were all conditioned by modern society to be independant, self sufficient, look out for number one (perhaps there not the right words to use but im sure you can get the gist of it) we're taught its wrong to be otherwise and its hard just to shrug that off no matter how submissive someone is.
and not everythings fun believe me there are days when you wonder what the hell you are doing but that usually passes very quickly.

if you're struggling to submit sexually then perhaps what started out as a bit of fun kink ,something new to try, is now past its sell by date?