I have never been good with "love" I always felt as tho something was missing. I took me years to find out that I will never be happy with just love I need a D/s relationship. Love is an emotion and if you have a good trusting domme that understands your needs "your" inner emotions will feed from the punishment and the sex after punishment. I guess what I'm saying is your emotions are yours, use them to love yourself first and then love with a partner will follow.