I went through this as soon as I met my first "Dom" in rl. I felt like I was addicted to something, I wanted to experience things Now, I wanted to feel something. It wasn't healthy. It's hard to be patient when you're feeling that kind of anxiety and excitement. For me, the only way to get rid of the feeling was to start Experiencing and start Exploring. Though I was very aware of the fact that, being as new as I was - I needed to prepare myself, do my research, see what I needed to look out for before putting myself out there and meeting people who've been in the lifestyle for far longer than I had.

I'm a romantic, being a sub and being a romantic can land you into difficult situations. So, I had to have realistic expectations if I was going to start meeting people in person. I signed up here and the bondage.com forums. For one, people can and will take advantage, and two everyone goes about their kink Differently. You kinda just have to date around. I met a few people I got along with really well so I kept them as play partners. It was purely sexual because I knew they wouldn't fit me right in a relationship and that's okay too, I was able to get enough experience to start realizing what I loved and what I hated and really begin developing as a sub.

As long as you keep in mind that You are always responsible for You, you'll be fine. Don't trust without having good reason to do so (He's genuine, you trust your intuition etc). Once I met the first few ppl I was comfortable, I wasn't so hasty to play or so impatient to have a D/s relationship. Finding what works for you can take time, just like any normal relationship. And once I started meeting up with ppl in the lifestyle from bondage and collarme.com I was able to make friends too =) This is just my experience. I find collarme a bit better than bondage.com but you may want to try both.

I say go out there and start exploring! Just make sure you got a smart head on ya and don't be gullible. There are plenty of fakes and jerks, but there are Good ppl out there too =) We all gotta start Somewhere. Happy searching! I'm sure you'll be fine.