A post that needs no name

[Warbaby1943]

J-Go I have never seen anything you have written to not be a piece of art. You have no problem expressing yourself or putting it down on paper or type. I don't know whether the two of you belong together or not but you both write very clearly.

[Rowen]

Amber, J-Go,

Have been rereading this post and after last weeks experience have taken the liberty to write. I don’t want to hijack you thread, wouldn’t dare, nor do I want to abuse it to vent my own mourning. Do wish however that the both of you can benefit of my experiences. If you think this writing is inappropriate, please let me know, it ill be gone..

Because, reading your letters one cannot but feel such a love, devotion, such a loyalty above and beyond, but also that world of hurt, almost feeling hearts being ripped open and left bleeding and longing…No wonder everybody reading them is touched to the bone..
Your love and devotion to each other is beyond question and perhaps even unparalled. However, apparently there is that dark side, an internal fight still standing in between, both of you hoping that this deep love you share eventually will conquer this.

The sad point however is that love, unlike in the movies, does not conquer all. I know, believe me. My former GF and me still love each other and a most tragic life event proved our deep loyalty even after our break up. A break up that asthonised our friends, them knowing how deep our bond was.

However, there was (and is) that dark side in me she couldn’t cope with…even when we agreed to never challenge that side ever again. As written before, our relationship was in fact doomed from that moment on. And even now, during her break up with her new BF, sometimes crying on my shoulder, I do know that we never ever will be a pair again.

What I am trying to say is that sometimes you don’t have a choice other than to let your beloved go, even it almost drives you insane with grief, in fact your life seems to loose all sense, even if it feels your body is incomplete.. It is that final, ultimate act of love, because you know it is in the best interest of your beloved and thus in the best interest of the both of you. And that is a pain love in the end will mend..

I don’t know if such is the case for you, most certainly it is not up to me to make or even suggest a decision in that direction. I do know however that there is a grief much much deeper than that grief of your break up. It is the grief of realising after years you have fought a battle never to be won, reached for a destination out of reach even before the journey began and must realise that despite all that, even despite that bond growing deeper and deeper during that battle and journey, you still have to let your beloved go. Believe me, that can be devastating…being the main reason for me to share it here, with you. I do wish both of you all the wisdom and all the strength in these days, preferably resulting in releasing that angel out of the stone.- and deeply appreciate your sharing this with us. Please don’t be offended with these ramblings of Rowen.