Well...

Let's see. I'm a 21 year old college student in Oregon. I am Domme to Wellbehavedboytoy, who is the first guy I've been with. I've really always had a desire to be dominant, for the most part, though I was very much ashamed of it for awhile. I grew up in a Christian home, and while my parents were very much on the "liberal" end of Christians, I guess I always felt that I was supposed to "submit" to the man I eventually married... and really could not fathom how I was going to end up doing that.

But, about 2 years ago, I got together with Wellbehaved, who introduced me to this as sex play. I am still fairly new to this, however, as we have only been actually exploring the lifestyle as more than just random sex play for about 10 months now (he underestimated in his intro!!). I am still working through dealing with reconciling these desires with my faith. But, this desire has almost always been a part of me. My first fantasies as a young kid were about dominating others and I've always really enjoyed erotica that has domination themes. I found these boards through a desire to learn more and have some people to talk to who understood this kind of stuff besides Wellbehaved and a younger sister of mine who is submissive.

I'm not really sure exactly how or why I had these desires to begin with. I think it might have had something to do with the fact that I helped to raise my 4 younger siblings from an early age, due to my mother dealing with depression issues during my childhood, so I have always been rather in control of things... I guess I liked that a lot and never wanted to give it up I really tend to enjoy the power exchange involved in my relationship with Wellbehaved. So, I'm still getting the hang of things and am always interested in learning!!!