Originally posted by AshtonDs:

It doesn't. You might think that some of us are so eloquent in our delivery and our storytelling, it's just because right now we have a bit more practice than you do.

Believe me, we understand what you are saying, some of us have gone through exactly that.
Perhaps I will practice more then. I have made an appointment with a therapist and I'm going to start sorting through some of my mess. Thank you guys for your encouraging words. I find myself quite upset by some of the habits that I have developed for dealing with my past, but I am trying to evolve new ways of dealing. I'll let you know if anything more productive comes up.I have had counselors when I was younger, but hopefully now that I have words and a better understanding I will be able to get the help that I need.