im an 18 year old student who is on here not looking for a relationship of any kind but looking for some awnsers to my own sexuality. i come from a very liberal minded family but have still always felt the need to hide the submissive part of my personality. i think i knew quite young as well that i didnt entirely want a 'normal' relationship, and i knew in my early teens about bdsm and looked at a lot of porn, i sort of fell into the 'slutty' group a school becouse they had an easyer time accepting difference. im at a point know where im beinging to consider my options and neither of them appeal to me greatly, to hide these feelings and hope that nobody realises, which i know doesnt work becouse flings ive had have realised what am and weve tried various light things but then id sneak off in the middle of the night and never speak to them again, or entering into this world that honestly freaks me out. im in control of everything in my life and dont find the reality of possibly loosing control outside of the relms of sex and sessions appealing. this probably should have gone to another link but im very interested in how other people realised their own sexuality