I've been a reader of this site for a long time and just registered to the forums today out of boredom; having glanced through a thousand worthless internet forums over the years I wasn't expecting anything other than AOL speak and spam. But I've been incredibly impressed at the level of open-mindedness and the quality of posting shown, especially in a thread like this which could easily have been greeted with derision, hostility or abuse.

So, hello everyone!

And to the original poster: I'm not sure that the experiences you seek are really as rare as you think, many of the stories here bear testament to the fact that lots of people share similar fantasies. Also, films made by people/firms such as Max Hardcore, Insex, MFX etc often display similar themes of extreme degradation, and they sell a lot of material to a lot of people, both dominant and submissive. I'm sure you'll eventually find what you're looking for if, as you say, you're seeking these experiences within the context of a loving and mutually rewarding relationship.