I think my “submissive” feelings have always been inside me, early in life I had no idea of the meaning of word, let alone what those feelings were. I was the one in playing games that always volunteered to be the one captured. It gave me funny feelings to be tied up, I even remember a feeling of disappointment when I wasn’t. I never wanted to choose what to play but always hoped it would something that had a “victim” in it.
I became very confused and felt very misunderstood during my early school life and that caused me to rebel against almost everything. It was only in my late teen that I stated, with a great deal of help, to understand all the mixed up feelings inside me that found my place in life.
I believe now, I have always had a submissive nature and that I am a natural submissive.