I have to say, of all the posts I have read, this particular one brought to light a lot of relief, enlightenment, and laughter!! I, too, was unable to properly play cowboys and indians... As I was always hoping someone would capture me and tie me up. A few times I did it myself....

For me, I have been so trained to "vanilla think" that I never even correlated my childhood fantasies to my adult craving for power exchange. For me, it is so wild how many actions, that I was never even cognizant of, fit together under my personal "submissive" label.

Just to clarify- I'm am not laughing AT anyone I am laughing with myself... only on this site would I be giggling about this stuff and reveling in it!! Thanks!!!