No, that's not the case! I'm perfectly capable of amusing myself...for short periods of time. *grins* I'm a social creature, though, so I love to be around people. What I meant was that I tend to go looking for trouble. If you're constantly looking to find fault, you won't be disappointed. Living in my head is kind of like living in a small town sometimes....you know....if there's nothing to talk about, people just make stuff up. It's like "Total Drama Island" in there! *lol* He never actually gave me a reason to doubt him, but I did anyway...all the time. He would think everything was fine, but inside I'd be stewing. Rather than try to communicate like an adult in the way that he showed me, I'd let it build until I exploded in an emotional outburst. I've been trying like hell to figure out why in the world I'd sabotage myself and him that way. I think I've got it, and I'm working to change it. If it doesn't work out with him this go round, maybe I'll be able to spare myself and next one who tries to scale these walls some hurt.