Dapperling, I feel so much better as well! Thank you so much for your kind reply. Actually, let me clarify first, that my family is not the only reason I have not yet had sex, and don't plan to until marriage. Its actually my beliefs about seperate issue that motivate my decision. One of my main goals in life is to be a mom. I love babies and can't wait to have them. I know I would never personally want to use protection/ prevent pregnancy in any way, and if I were to have sex now, it would be suicide for me in so many different ways. Number one, my parents would kill me, number two, I don't have the money to support a child and I am focused on completing my education first as well. Secondly, and most importantly, I am against abortion in all ways. I personally feel that it is the murder of an unborn child and therefore would never have one. I figure the only other logical decision for me to make would be to wait until I am ready to be a parent, and I'm hoping by that time I will be settled down with somebody, similar to myself in certain ways. The final reason, is like you, I can only be aroused and/or satisfied in certain ways... I can't get excited by the touch of my own skin. And I need to have something particularly kinky in mind to get that point. I need someone who can satisfy me in this way. I haven't even started looking for that someone yet. I do believe in destiny though, so I feel that when the time is right, he and I will find each other (at least I hope). I'm also not looking for a one night stand / or steady relationship. I'm looking for a life long partner.
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I look forward to chatting with you more in the future. It really is a comfort to know I'm not alone.