hey,
wow how many times have i thought this.
i am always scared i will not be good enough for anyone, that i wont be able to please them, that i wont be able to do everything they want from me, but as i have been told before "thats what training is for" and its true, how are u meant to be the best at something when in reality you dont know what is expected of you, it is quite a steep learning curve and submitting to someone is hard, even if you are submissive naturally, even harder if in your everyday life you are a "dom" so to speak.
to trust someone to be your Master, its a huge thing in me eyes, you have to be comfortable that they know your limits, will only push them if you want them pushed and that they get to know you.

" am not ready to submit to sombody who hasnt earnt that from me"

you shouldnt submit to anyone that hasnt earnt that from you, if they havent i dont think either of you will get the best of things.

of course this is just my opinion, which does lead onto the next point

unfortunatly doms dont just pop up when you want them, although it would be handy huh? like any relationship vanilla or otherwise it may be ages until you find that person that you can submit to, or it may be a matter of days. you can go to munches, talk to people on here, put an add in the personals section anything, although when you do find someone and maybe meet up please make sure it is safe!!!!

any dom that isnt intrested in your safety isnt worth your time..

you may feel this isnt going to fill the hole in your life, but you never know until you try right?

just my two cents, hope it helps

emma x