Is this a fetish of mine? NO. Is it something I fantasize about and want? NO.

I absolutely agree that SSC is paramount, being tortured or abused to death holds no appeal.

BUT

Is it a way to romanticize death? Yes, that is one way to put it.

One thing to keep in mind, Hubby and I have been together for years. We have been through a lot, but we always stood united and I have learned to trust Him. It has taken us years to get to this point! Is it romantic idyl every single moment of every day, of course not, but it is real.

If He came home tomorrow and said He wanted to snuff me to be rid of me - yes, there would be snuff, but I wouldn't be the one lying in the casket. *weg*

My Husband is older than I and prone to extreme sports and extreme living, and if something were to...

The very idea of a life without Him seems like an unimaginable torment. If that were necessary, I would continue to function for the sake of our son, but I would stop living - and it has crossed my mind, that I would end up taking my own life.

(If our son was of age) and either Him or I were diagnosed with something or something similar happened - As far as ways to die go, having Him "wring my little neck" isn't such a bad one, .