Oh wow, this is going to be mind blowing to have both your husband and you talk about these experiences!! I've never been in this kind of situation, to be shared with other men, not being able to do anything about this because of the bondage...but it sure is a wild fantasy of mine. And I can relate to your feelings of fear and excitement, even if it's all in the mind for me. I'm not even sure I could follow this through like you did...well, I guess the bondage would take care of that. *laughing*

You talked about your Japanese upbringing and the tradition of a wife having to obey her husband totally...this is a concept so alien to me with my background of being raised in Germany. Even in a BDSM context I have the 'escape' of a safeword, of all of this being consensual, of me surrendering willfully to my Master...how different it must be when in your mind the husband already has all the power, literally have it. I know from what your husband wrote earlier that this was not easy for you at the beginning...that you didn't want to be anally penetrated, that you were scared (?) or opposed to even having sex with men from a different cultural background. How did you come from this to enjoying sex with different men, being taken by them without having a say in this? Was it the Japanese upbringing as a woman/wife that made you agree to this or was it something that made you hot from the beginning somehow?

Another thing...just how do you cope with having so many men penetrate you over and over? Damn, that must hurt like hell! Any tips on how to survive? *laughing*

*smiles* and yes...I can see why the men were so taken with your ass. I myself prefer your eyes...

Thank you so much for sharing, Mariko...you're very special, but I'm sure you know that anyway. *hugs*

Silke