okay, this is hard for me. I've tried a few time, but i'll do it. now.

I am consumed by her. she fills my every thought. when I am alone, I am trying to think about what I can do for her, to open her more, to help her, to show her more. I think about her needs- about her fantasies- and I work towards giving those things to her.

when she is there obeying me, I feel like a king. I absolutly love the way that she is mine. that she is ready for my slightest whim thrills me. Her desire to please me feels like the greatest man in the world.

now when we are in scene, I feel... hungry. I want all of her. I want to push her, make her feel something she has never felt before. I want to hear her gasp and whimper, I want to tease her with my cock till she begs- I want to block out the world until reality only consists of her and I and then we become one....


the second question- how do i deal with the responsibility?
I love it. i really enjoy taking care of her. one of our favorite non sexual things to do is to pick out clothes for her online...She is wonderful, and because of that wonder, i want to do these things for her.