having to be forced...

[DowntownAmber]

Like the other posters, I don't really see an issue here.

Now, if you feel a sense of shame stemming from your constant submission and the need to express it as you do, I strongly recommend that you explore where that comes from - attaching shame to activities that bring us pleasure can only end badly if left unexamined. Is it something within you that makes you wonder about your need to perpetually submit, or perhaps the pressures of friends and society?

Simply, there's no reason to be concerned about the needs and wants you have, but it may still be a good idea to examine why you think it's problematic or why you feel the need to question your identity.