Hello from Mariko - I have to keep make sure you know it me not my husband but then he has good English so perhap easy to tell. It remain lovely get your comment and lot question I try answer but if maybe I forget some please forgive me. It is very nice hear such kind comment and support of our relationship. I know for some you this seem strange relation but I am glad you so tolerant. To be tolerant is great power as is able to accept difference of people. This world too much not accept difference I think. I try talk each you a bit.

RedEva thank you for thoughts. I find interest you understand what we perhap both experience. That is that in some way as you say power shift - M think he dominant but sometime I think he also submissive my will but not always he realise this! We not had idea of dominate and submit in relationship but this is perhap one way classify roles. Not sure alway it simple like that.

Silke - hope you find soccer OK but like you I have wonder what make Xidane so bad - but maybe bad provoke? Yes I think culture of west and japan quite differ even we take western idea and sometime west take japanese one. It has been very much culturre of japan for woman be submit husband will. Even have in past walk behind husband. And recently 30+ woman not marry so much so birth go down and men have made word from english in japanese describe woman who not marry husband but orefer be alone which is 'parasite singulu' which really terrible insult woman. So some way I interested ypu say you have to brak with culture for be submissive. In some way i maybe submissive also but I try break also Japan view submissive and do not want japanese life which one reason I have husband not japanese.

Vixey and phoenix thank you for very kind comment M and me. I not think this really best but has good message exchange between us and very much appreciate. I think let out true feeling good and not important who judge pervert or not pervert because decision made inside relationship not outside it. If you and partner think it OK it is OK. Thus I hope people not think M and i we pervert but if do it still not what M and I think so we personally feel OK. You say unwilling not your preference. sometime I do thing because M like even I not like but this not alway and sometime he not like what I do willing but this also stimulate for him. maybe this sound perverted?

You mention deflower anus as erotic. I think before he do this . i notice M take big interest there in me. and gradually he do thing stimulate interest there and make me feel anus sexual area. this not done him in hurry but introduce into my mind idea maybe something he want do. Whilst i not like idea he do deflower me in there gradually it become inevitable as he really want me so much there. so on one hand he take me by bondage there first time but i also feel willing to accept him do this as kind of sacrifice by me because know he want so much have me that way. I sometime think because I not virgin when meet him this is way he still can have me his virgin woman but in anus not vagina? first time do in bondage give him feel control. I think also he right if not in bond then it hurt so I will really try stop him which I was not able do but had to accept. as it was he able do few times me first night as he remain very excited and then I accept and know I have give him something most wanted by him. Perhap this submissive.

Please excuse my poor writing and little sense but so very nice hear from you all.