Whether or not this is "normal" thinking is all a matter of perspective. As most things are. In a room full of vanilla people, you are not normal. We are all fucked up from their point of view. I'm cool with that. I've always loved being the freak in the group. LOL.

Around here, you are totally normal. I love it best when Master is "forcing" me. When he walks into the room and grabs me by my throat and forces me into the position he wants. *fans myself* I get all worked up just thinking about it. (he he he) It reminds me that I am his slave and really he can take what he wants when he wants. We do both have the ability to make love, but even that I wouldn't classify as vanilla. I have a deeper emotional connection with him than I have ever even come close to in any vanilla relationship. That alone makes sex so much more even when we are not being rough.

Cheer up! None of us are normal according to 90% of the population. Just own it! I do.