Quote Originally Posted by BryansGrrrl View Post
As someone who was NOT a cutter, per se, but used pain in a similar way, I'll give my $0.02.

For me, when I was in emotional pain, I would cause myself physical pain and the emotional pain would recede.

Now, I wasn't a "cutter" necessarily.... but I'd sometimes pull my hair out strand by strand, scratch my arms or legs, hold my hand over a lighter (not until it blistered), and things of that nature.

It sends you to a different plane emotionally & mentally. It allowed me to shut off what I was feeling emotionally, focus on the physical and then I could get back to the mental and decide what to do about it.

Not sure if that makes sense.

I still have these tendencies... but I've worked it out so that I deal with emotional pain in a healthier way now, and only rarely do I want to harm myself to get away from things.


hun i am with you ..mind you i didn't do the blistering but all the rest and yes i bash myself against things as well anything to take the pain way inside of me...

And just like you i have found healthier ways ... although at times when that is not available i find at times i still do things to take the mental agony away ...

One time it came on so fast i broke ..i wrote a peom about it and posted it called Breakdown.. not 2 or three hours after it started...

it is in no-erotic poems near the top at the moment as i had yet another break down just a while ago.. sighs.. i am still trying to get over it...

just my opinion

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