and to scan so thoroughly as a way to survive, or at least to try to prepare yourself for what was coming next
I just call myself a control freak. I need to know how everything is going to end so I can brace myself and it can't hurt me. I've never seen anyone else express it like that. Thanks.
"It is a brave thing to try to love at all, let alone completely and always. It is a brave thing-and yet it is the only thing."