That is where i feel lucky to have the Master i do have, as of the moment He is waiting for kids to be in school and nobody home tomorrow for trying out the new suspension cuffs He got on ebay and a nervous me waits to see if its going to start with punishment for the behavior i displayed...which i deserve. There is chocolate and fucking and comforting to a large degree. W/we work opposite schedules so O/our life is usually somewhat catching up with each other anyway. It helps everyone so much to know i am not alone in this as i am perpetually judging my submission and behavior constantly. My Master keeps reassuring me that i am doing fine and that i am learning, just be yourself...sigh...thanks again