Thank you submcrider and ian2411. I appreciate your advice truely. I think it might be a god idea for me to go see a counselor. I wasn't aware that not all dealt with childhood abuse, that was VERY helpful information.

I've always wanted to see my brither because he is my family and I know he was abused to. I used to think that I was alright with everything, but since I've had flashbacks... I'm betting ian2411 is right and it will just make them worse. I just worry that he's abusing his kids. Since he progressively quit playing all together, I wonder if he got better. I feel bad for him. Which I'm sure sounds odd, but he had a much harder life than me growing up, and mine was no walk in the park. I always wondered if he got better. If he ever thought about me or my sister.

I've talked to my sister about all of this numerous times. She knows we played a game with him, but she doesn't remember any details. She was 2. Her abuse quit way before mine. Maybe because she was so small. idk