i was abused as a child by 3 different men. it caused a lot of problems for me when i started trying to accept the sub side of me, and especially when i had to explain to Him. i didn't want him thinking that i had enjoyed the abuse and wanted a 'replay'.

i accept who i am now. there is a huge difference between some one using you against your will, and gladly handing over control and allowing yourself to be controled.

i hope that made sense!