What? You are jealous of her and her activities but are uncomfortable that she likes you too much? That's your bomb?

You want her to be your friend, to play with, to keep under your control, but to distance yourself emotionally?

What makes you think this is the place to come to learn cruelty?

I ... am here for basically one purpose and one purpose only.
Not to mention your pre-stated intention to abandon us too... once you've gotten your answer.