i can relate to your situation so much. i was with a guy for three years who completely took advantage of my submissive nature and used me for all i could give him. i was an emotional mess the whole time.. and my self esteem was so low i thought i deserved everything he did to me. i told myself my whole life i wouldnt let anyone do that to me.. but it ended up happening anyways.

i finally found out that he was with other girls as well as me.. and i ended things for good. im so happy now that i have found the one that i truly think i'm meant to be with. he is my master and my love.. and i couldnt be happier.

good luck with everything i'm sure it will work out great