I also fantasize about rape too. It wasn't til about 8 or 9 months ago when my Master tied me to the door, whipped me good for playing around and then as my punishment she proceeded to show me how to screw around. Placing a spreader bar at my ankles, she lifted me to my toes with a chain attached to my nipples. Making me stick my ass out she took me from behind, out of protest I was gagged and banged even hard unable to resist any bit because of the restraints. I really didn't expect it and was surprised when she left me there for several hours after taking what she wanted. Scolding me later on that evening for being a bad slave. Now when ever I am unsupervised I am locked and tied down. I think my Master loves to rape me because she does it several times monthly as my reminder to be true to her.