Did I find a good Mistress?

[IAN 2411]

Hello everyone, I am new to the community... I'm a 24-year old male sub. I have been dreaming for years to find a girlfriend who would want to be my Mistress, but to no avail... until four months ago when I met a stunning 34-year old woman. I wasted no time in telling her about my fantasies. She initially thought it was not normal, and that I had opened an evil door with those fantasies. Then I convinced her to like the idea.

I advise you to tread with extreme caution, and I am not sure by reading your post whether you are asking for advice or comments. She is ten years older than you not that it is a problem these days, because my Mistress was twelve years older than me and until she died two years ago we lasted thirty years. It is hard to find a good Mistress, and let’s face it; it is hard to find any kind of Mistress. You have told her all about your fantasies but do you know her well enough after three months contact to be able to trust her with your well being, and with all respect to you I doubt it. As I said tread carefully, do you know her background and why at thirty four why was she not already dating, if she had been and it was terminated why. I know all this sounds daft and sounds like I am putting water on your fireworks but this is the person that will ultimately control your will. The main reason I am saying this is because she fell into line with your wishes so fast and done such a fast personality change that is quite remarkable. You say she is very Dominating and possessive, [caution] don’t be a 24/7 prisoner to someone that is getting pleasure from your misery while she might be receiving pleasure elsewhere. You have to make boundaries for both you and her and respect them, sit down and talk because without mutual dialogue you could place yourself in a hot place that you can never get out of. After all that I wish you the best of luck and I hope she turns out to be the Mistress of your dreams.

Since then, she has periodically been going back and forth between enjoying dominating me in bed (she makes me crawl and beg and worship her for example) while she keeps on telling me in normal conversations that she's not sure about all this.

Is she enjoying dominating you or the power that you have given her and can she be trusted not to abuse the power? She was never in the community and you as you say are new to the life style and dare i say a novis.

We're so far deep in our imagination now that during sex she devilishly talks about caging me, gagged, twice a week when we one day live together, and using and abusing me whenever she wants on top of that, and not always giving me permission to see my friends, until one day I'm her complete servant. She jokes that I'll have no freedom but that I'll never escape her.

Be very careful what you wish for because life has a knack of kicking you up the ass.

My gut feeling is that she is manipulating me to think that our kinky sex could stop anytime, which would be hell to me...

Trust your gut feeling, it has saved many people a lot of pain and grief. She is manipulating you and very well i might add.

I'm not gonna lie to myself: I become very turned on when I think that I could be nothing but her toy slave who can't do anything unless allowed and who has to work very hard for few freedoms. But in my heart I feel like she might take me away from social opportunities, which makes me question: up to what point can I let my lust rule me? Will I find myself either hopelessly enslaved by her if I decide to stick it out, or hopelessly lost without her if I 'escape'? Can I really live this kind of life where I've become completely controlled and dependent of my Mistress?

Well you had better think hard and fast before you find yourself in a situation, that if it turns tits upward that you can’t get out of.


Regards ian 2411