I advise you to tread with extreme caution, and I am not sure by reading your post whether you are asking for advice or comments. She is ten years older than you not that it is a problem these days, because my Mistress was twelve years older than me and until she died two years ago we lasted thirty years. It is hard to find a good Mistress, and let’s face it; it is hard to find any kind of Mistress. You have told her all about your fantasies but do you know her well enough after three months contact to be able to trust her with your well being, and with all respect to you I doubt it. As I said tread carefully, do you know her background and why at thirty four why was she not already dating, if she had been and it was terminated why. I know all this sounds daft and sounds like I am putting water on your fireworks but this is the person that will ultimately control your will. The main reason I am saying this is because she fell into line with your wishes so fast and done such a fast personality change that is quite remarkable. You say she is very Dominating and possessive, [caution] don’t be a 24/7 prisoner to someone that is getting pleasure from your misery while she might be receiving pleasure elsewhere. You have to make boundaries for both you and her and respect them, sit down and talk because without mutual dialogue you could place yourself in a hot place that you can never get out of. After all that I wish you the best of luck and I hope she turns out to be the Mistress of your dreams.
Is she enjoying dominating you or the power that you have given her and can she be trusted not to abuse the power? She was never in the community and you as you say are new to the life style and dare i say a novis.
Be very careful what you wish for because life has a knack of kicking you up the ass.
Trust your gut feeling, it has saved many people a lot of pain and grief. She is manipulating you and very well i might add.
Well you had better think hard and fast before you find yourself in a situation, that if it turns tits upward that you can’t get out of.
Regards ian 2411