True that helped me so much to set up my mind at least i knew that my next step is to share with her in an open discussion and see where that will take us

then will post here again seeing if my BDSM steps is going normal or not

thank you guys and wish you all the best

ah i have something else , what if we are far apart right now and we cant live together till after 10 months ? is there any ideas we can do online or in the fone till we meet again ?