i feel like i should tell my story it is not a pleasant one my abuses mental physical and sexual happened at the hands of my former Master and his new mistress i moved in with my former Master on my 18th birthday i had how ever been talking to him online sense i was 16 at first it was wonderful then his words came harsher calling me worthless and such shortly after i became worthless he revoked my name saying i deserved no name when his frequent and already harsh punishments became move inventive one of his favorites was to beat my whole body with a hot freshly cooked in frying pan or the mental spatula that was hot from being left in the pan soon his use of tools turned from a living hell to a welcome escape from the closet where i was locked when i wasn't being raped and beaten by him and his friend and eventually by his new wife who i found out later would make stories up so that he would be all the more cruel to me the abuses i suffered from his friends and wife when left in their charge were mostly of the sexual nature they would tie me down and have me raped by all manor of things human and non so 3 failed suicide attempts and a death threat later i left him and while it has taken me forever it seems to quit looking of my shoulder and to at least glance at other peoples eyes it is still hard 8 years later the therapists i went to didn't and don't understand so i am very great full that this post is around