Hello, shygirlD.
Welcome to the Library! Consider this a late response to your late hello. I will say that the little bit of your story that you've shared here, resonates with me. I was in a very similar place when I first came here a year and a half ago. My life has changed since then. I'd suggest taking your time to read through the forums, visit the chat room, meet a few people. Above all, enjoy your time here.