frustration

[icey]

i think the majority of subs here admit to having feisty tempers at times.

being honest with yourself,do you ever think its frustration not just at normal every day life but actually D/s related? and if so and we know we get frustrated sometimes then what the hell are we doing in D/s r/ships?

i for one know for a fact that occasionally mine is, i see it this way ...it doesnt matter how submissive you are how much pleasure you get from your submission and the control excersised over you there are days when you feel like ripping your hair out and yelling...aaargh why me???

for eg, one day Icehawk needed to pop out to collect something and told me to get in the car,i just didnt fancy a drive but he insisted,while i was in the car i was a bit fed up and sulky and thinking to myself i dont want to why should i,im a grown up i should be able to do what i want,this is pissing me off cant he see im angry with him and he should just let me stay home,others dont have to do this etc ...and of course in reality thats true but i chose otherwise so then i got to thinking if i dont like it then why am i doing it,why did i choose it?

but then that in itsself got me thinking..why would i be here in this position not liking it why am i here asking myself this question if deep down i didnt like it? and cant imagine or want our r/ship any other way,then why am i angry? why am i frustrated?.....kind of like which came first the chicken or the egg type thoughts.

am i the only weird one here? am i just rambling nonsense lol or do you have the odd occasion and get frustrated like that lol...